It’s not a joy. I just use humour when I’m feeling awkward. Anyway, I keep talking about trauma and all out here but haven’t really been up-front about something which is that I suffer from PTSD. So if you see me having a disproportionate fight or flight response to something you or someone else has done please take it with a pinch of salt. It’s probably triggered by an amalgam of things and not one event. It’s not yours or their fault.
I’ve had it for years and it’s mostly under control. I’ve got it down to the point where it doesn’t impact my work or life in any way but then sometimes I slip up when there is way too much going on. I’ve been off social media for years just to avoid accidentally being an idiot to someone on it due to this but since I’m more present on it lately I need to figure out a way around it. That’s my business.
Anyway, disclaimer here is please if something like that happens where you see me completely just shut off from something or act very uncharacteristically you can know that’s why. Don’t take it personally, don’t blame yourself or anyone else. Just give me a few days. I’ll be back to normal.